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Shame
03:57
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Burned at both ends, I lay with restless hands
Lost myself living up to your demands
And i’ve tried to let this go
but somehow coldness seeped below
I’m giving into it, the darkness that surrounds this place
masking the imbalance you built inside my brain
fixation, i’ve hollowed out, convinced myself this is what I need now
I feel it slipping
Makeshift madness
Shifting in my bones
Clinging to all I hold close
Tearing through, anger’s exposed
I will never live this down
faced with this burden now
Cracked through the surface
Neglecting to see that desperation killed something in me
I’ve got a sick obsession x2
i’m comfortably numb in this separation
I’m comfortably numb in your exploitation
It was all leading up to this you catalyst,
making incisions on my mental resistance
I feel it slipping
Makeshift madness
Shifting in my bones
Clinging to all I hold close
Tearing through, hatred's exposed
I will never live this down
faced with this burden now
Cracked through the surface
Neglecting to see that desperation killed something in me
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it’s hard to sleep
when at night I sink
That’s when the devil is always closest to me
At my bedside, when I shut my eyes
I can hear the demons dance inside
they manifest, we coincide
This is the end of all things
Fix me, i’m displaced with dead memories
Fix me, tell me i’m everything
Plague my mind to rot
imprison me to these torturous thoughts
Take me, break me
lead me to insanity
Take me, break me
bless me with serenity x2
Dancing by the pale moonlight
venom takes its course, i’m flooded with formaldehyde (I improvise)
I think about death, and I think about it all the time
the sweet sensation, I welcome to be mortified
This is the end of all things
Fix me, i’m displaced with dead memories
Fix me, tell me i’m everything
Plague my mind to rot
imprison me to these torturous thoughts
I’m filled with these vile
treacherous, murderous
cadaverous memories
look what they’ve done to me
This is my one way ticket to hell
i’m in it, i’m just now giving in
Skintight, heads dry,
nothing seems to ever make sense in my mind
The devil is real and I bore his face
He lives inside me and every one of my mistakes
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Depraved
04:03
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Flawed by design, something that’s passed it’s prime
washed up, composed of shattered nerves, i’m misaligned
trepidation, mutilation to my mind, downtrodden
so sick of being victimized
i'm riddled with unease
product of destruction, in need of a reprieve
Turmoil is all that seems to carry me
Problematic, i’m engulfed in agony
I feel this sadness take hold of me
comes in waves as I sink to dependency
Waiting for the emptiness to subside
but i’m stuck in this permanent decline
There could be no end to this misery
Mental weight a bitter pill that’s hard to sustain
Ball and chain to this infectious strain
Hopelessness shows itself again
Keeping me close to the edge
Suspended to all of my attempts
Telling myself that I should give in
I feel this sadness take ahold of me
comes in waves as I sink to dependency
Waiting for the emptiness to subside
but i’m stuck in this permanent decline
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Disassociated
03:24
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Mental frustrations they drag me down
dissociated, i’m casted to black out
Worn places, infatuation I still taste the manipulation
Worn places, infatuation I can still taste the manipulation
Debris of doubt, you’ve burned me out
my backbone was nowhere to be found
Synthetic, deplorable sensibility, take a look to what you did to me
These mental screams they pierce through my skin
Decomposition, my psyche has been unhinged
my psyche has been unhinged
Don’t you understand i’m salvaging what I can,
Dissipated, i'm nothing more than a damaged man
Debris of doubt, you’ve burned me out
my backbone now nowhere to be found
Mental frustrations they drag me down
dissociated, i’m casted to black out
These mental screams they pierce through my skin
Decomposition, my psyche has been unhinged
These vivid dreams they always repeat, save me
Nervous break, you’re too late, leave me alone
Cognitive closure, what I needed to start over
treated like some spineless pushover,
You took advantage as you kept your composure
I was nothing more than your placeholder
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Concilium
03:28
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These urges to kill, these urges to snap
parts of me i’ll never get back
These colors i’ve seen have faded to gray
led me here trapped in these dark days
I tore you apart in my head
humanity I once knew, is left for dead
I tore you apart in my head
humanity, put to rest
Put to rest
I can’t keep myself in check
I keep tearing myself apart instead
I tore you apart in my head
let’s just keep out the rest
Here is my message, all my morals and good intentions
shattered from narcissistic images
The red draws out the white
doesn’t it bring out the pain in my eyes
battered and torn, i’m bleeding from my insides
Take me away, cause god knows i’ve only tried
I’ve tried, take me away
I don’t believe in anything
Take me away
The red draws out the white
doesn’t it bring out the pain in my eyes
battered and torn, i’m bleeding from my insides
Take me away, cause god knows i’ve only tried
I can’t keep myself in check
I keep tearing myself apart instead
I tore you apart in my head
let’s just keep out the rest
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Split release
drawn in disbelief
jigsawed missing pieces of me buried beneath
Flipped the switch
the pressure went all to my head
i’m held a hostage, in my repercussions
now neurosis is all that’s left x2
Why won’t you let me
Why can’t you let me breathe
Why won’t you leave
I’m a victim to this disease x2
I’m breaking down
chewed me up and spit me out
I guess this is what I am now
Succumbed to delirium x2
I’m deranged, disengaged, in my negligence
Subdued and implicated to this depressant substance
Narcotics, i’m neurotic, prescriptions they made me psychotic
I’m held a hostage in my repercussions
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